Thursday, September 28, 2017

You are going to be fine

" You are going to be fine "
Everyone just need to stop to say this. Because it doesn't matter how hard I tried to tell myself every single night that I'm going to be fine..
But eventually it's me who have to face the fact that

I won't be fine at all.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

At First

I remember at first, I was terrified to talk to you everyday. 

I remember I used to be scared to kiss you, to hug you, to even talk to you. And it was all because I was so frightened of messing it all up, of messing us up. 

I didn’t want to say the wrong thing, or do the wrong thing, so I did nothing and hoped for the best. As time went on, my confidence lifted up and I came to the realisation that you were in love with me, no matter what I said or did. So I began kissing you without notice, grabbing on and hugging you when I felt like it, talking so much that you had to tell me to shut up. 

And that’s when I fell for you I suppose, 

I showed you parts of me that nobody else has seen because I’ve always backed off, but you, you loved me for them. 

And I suppose I gave off too much because everything got too much for you 

and you le..

Sunday, September 17, 2017

You


It's you.
In a thousand of lifetimes, in a hundred of ways,
it's you.
It'll always be you

Friday, August 4, 2017

I'll be there


3 AM or 3 PM, i do not care.

I will be there, when you

need me.

Friday, June 30, 2017

You'll be my last

At this point,
I just, don't know.
The fact that's, hurts soo much.
Some people called me

" Stupid "
" Lelaki dayus "

For not making a confrontation.

They do not know our story,
My story.

If someone were to blame,
It's was me.

Knowing the truth,
By my own eyes.
Yet,
I'm still here.

" Why ? "

" You'll be my last. No matter what. "
" I promise "

Wednesday, June 28, 2017

كُنْ فَيَكُونُ

(كُنْ فَيَكُونُ)

Knowing what had happened,
in the absence of me,
for a brief of time..
.
.
.
Why You give me "such" a test
Why You showed me "that"
.
.
.
Allahu

Please give me 
strength
Please help me

Please
Please
Please

I'm begging

Lies

" Why man loves to lie ? "
" Because woman loves to hear "

Sometimes, we tell lies to comfort you. We are an ignorant creature while you are an overthinking one. You guys think too much, make assumptions and conclude it by yourself.
Here's a situation.
If we accompany you to buy some clothes. And you asked us either if baby blue or royal blue looks better on you.
We actually don't care. If we love you, you look better on anything. Even better without anything, lol. But, if we say that we don't mind about it.
" Anything will do "
" Whatever babe "

You know what's going to be in your mind ?
" He doesn't love me anymore "
" He doesn't care about me. He has someone else "

You started to assume things.
That's why we lie.
Sigh.

Tuesday, June 27, 2017

Hey, I'm hurt

" Hey, I'm hurt "
" Sure, I'm here. What happened ? "

That's how I treat them. Whenever they were sad. Whenever they were down. I would say that I am there for them.
And whenever this world is being hard on me. Whenever I couldn't hold on myself and need someone by me.
" Hey, I'm not okay "
" I don't know if your pain is worse than mine? "

That's how they treat me.
So I know, people only want me to hear them. They want me to comfort them. They want me to hold them. But they never want to hold me when I need them.
That's pathetic.

Thursday, June 1, 2017

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Two Soul

It wasn’t that he didn’t love her.
It was just that he was so in love with her,
and knew that she was his destiny, that he didn’t feel like
he needed to give her any more signs of his love. 

Meanwhile, she was still wondering what she meant to him. 
She was still trying to make him love her, waiting for him to express it. 
The reality was that he was already in way too deep. 
What he was looking for at this point was different
from what she was looking for. 

And this is when disasters happen.
Two people who are in love, but lose each other because
she feels like he’s not showing his love enough,
and he feels that she doesn’t trust his love for her enough. 

Monday, March 13, 2017

140117

If Allah has written
something to be yours.
It will be.
Time might be different.
The journey might be different.
But it'll be
yours.
.
.
.
14 January 2017.
Alhamdulillah.
Alhamdulillah.
One more step to go.
.
.
.
Be strong.
Have patience.
We can do it,
Together.